I will haunt you like a ghost

Dear Jon -

Today in our integration class we talked about the importance of letters. I felt perfectly ironic and missed you terribly. I didn't see you at school, today. Tomorrow is Good Friday.

There's so much I want to write to you about. I want to tell you all about my days, the stresses and challenges I'm facing. Perhaps these letters will transform into that, but not yet. For now, I want them to focus on you. I know I never had you, and I never will, and yet I want to cleave to any shred of you I have in my life.

Oh, Jon. You said you'd burn me a CD. Maybe you'll have it for me on Monday. Do you remember when I gave you a copy of Miles Davis's love songs? I wonder if you ever listen to it.

That's all for now. I've got to clean house before my husband gets home. We're having a guest over tonight, which maybe I'll want to tell you about when these letters transition out of you and into me.

- M.